Well my Teddybear is helping his friend once again. I Miss him dearly but I just need to understand he has to get it done. I'm hoping it soon will be over, and he don't need to go there all the time.

Today was a very good day. Woke up feeling good, but still feeling sick, and at times having a hard time breathing. But good meaning my day went really good. i just Miss my Teddybear very much. I just hope he don't come home to late tonight. I know once things are done Ill get to spend more time with him. Right now like I said he's just busy with things, he has a lot of on his plate right now. But at the end it will be well worth it. I just have to hangin there, and my chance will come to spend all the time with him. I know I just need to understand right now, and i'm honestly trying.

Well i'm going to relax. Have a nice night...HUGS

Well today I'll be staying home from School. I guess you could say the past two days I been having a hard time breathing off and on. It's always durning the night time I have this problem. It usually last for like 2 hours, and goes away. I know part of it is due to my cold I have. But I had this problem before as well off and on. But seems to be getting worst now. If things get worst I'll need to visit the doctor, and see what he says again. It's not a very good feeling. My cold seem to be getting better. Atleast I don't always feel sick. I have a feeling my cough will start soon. But I hope not.

I guess I'll do a lot of reading today. Keep myself busy so I don't get bored. hehe. I'm also going to try, and catch up with some sleep.

Well when next month comes I'm hoping Ill be able to get a job. I'll also be going back to Hula beginning of next Month. I can't wait. Well i'm going to search the web for awhile, and look for myself a new CD player. It comes in handy when I'm in School waiting for Class to start. I like to sit outside, and just enjoy the Hawaiian sunshine. It's so peaceful just sitting back, and listening to my music from my CD diskman. whatever you call those things. LOL. But yeah it's time I get a new one. Well let's say the one I have now I had since 1993. LOL. Yeah it's time for a new one since it's kind of going. I was thinking maybe a Hello Kitty one. hehe. But knowing my Teddybear he will tell me to get something good. I honestly would love an i-Pod. Maybe santa will be good to me this xmas, and get me one. I'm talking about my Mom. LOL. Well i'll write more later today. Everyone have a Nice Day! HUGS

I'm honestly happy I have such wonderful friends who always wonder how I'm doing and stuff. No matter that I hardly hangout with my friends don't mean we arn't friends. My friends have there own life, and a very busy one as well. But I can honestly say my two bestfriends in the whole world is My Sis Donna, and Rob. They both been here for me through thick and thin. I mean K is my bestfriend, and the number one person in my life right now. But thats different he's my bf. He will always be my bestfriend. Someone I know I can always go to when I need someone to talk too. I honestly do go to K first before anyone else to talk about my problems. and if I need a second advice I go to Donna. But my Teddybear is my bestfriend, and the love of my life I been waiting for. Like for Donna she has known me for years over 15 years. She been there for me from the very beginning, and everytime I had bf troubles. because before I couldn't even go to my bf, because they wouldnt understand me. K is the first bf ever who I go to first before going to anyone else about my problems. As for Rob he's been by myside from as far as I can remember. he's been there for me when I was with other bf's, and that didn't work out. We been out of touch off, and on for the past couple of years. But he told me if I ever need a friend to talk to he will always be here to listen. He's a sweetheart. No i'm not just saying all this because he reads my blogger I honestly do mean it that him and donna is my bestfriend who always been here for me as long as I known them. He deserves to find someone who can treat him the way he deserves to be treated. So if there are any single ones out there my buddy Rob is single, and he will be one of the best bf you will never regret having in your life. yeah all relationship goes through ups and downs, but if you have communication it will be all good at the end. He's just like my Teddybear, sweet, caring, loving, and all those other good things you should look for in a bf. By the way when I say Teddybear i'm talking about my bf. LOL. No matter how many ups and downs me and my Teddybear go through I just hope we will always work things out right away. He's the best thing ever happen in my life, and the best bf I ever had as well. He's a keeper. I honestly would like to spend rest of my life with my teddybear when the timing is right. Well we only been together for almost 3 months so we hav a lot of time to talk about those kinds of stuff. for now just need to enjoy one another. but I swear that boy better ask me to marry him before I reach 35. if not i'll be very sad LOL...Love you baby...muah

Well right now i'm in the computer lab just trying to kill time before Class starts. Time is sure going by super slow. It's also rainning off, and on outside. I just hope when it's time to go home it's not rainning. I'm sick, and don't need to be walking in the rain. But I guess if I really have to thats the only way i'm getting my butt home. I just don't want to get more sick. I can't afford to be missing anymore classes, esp. since the school semester is almost over. Pretty soon it's November, and that will mean close to to December where finals will begin after the 9th of December. I'm so not looking forward to finals. I guess you could say i'm passing all my class so i'm not worried right now. English doing good getting a B so far, Japanese um not to good C, and last but not least Math B as well. So i'm doing not so bad I could do better though, but I'm not going to stress over it. I should finish up, and go read my book. I wish it wasn't rainning outside so I can go read my book in the hot fresh air. lol. Nah I like sitting outside instead always in the Library or the computer lab. But i'm going to end here for now, and write more when I get home later today. HUGS

I just have way to many shit on my mind to sleep right now. I just wish my brain would just shut up, and stop always getting me into trouble with a whole bunch of shit. I just don't want anyone ruinning things with me and my teddybear. If it ever comes to that someone ruin things between him, and I honestly I'm going to do something about it. i'm not just going to sit around and let someone ruin things. for now I know I shouldn't worry about it. if time ever does come then i will start worrying about it. just when your so scared of losing someone all this shit goes through your mind. when someone who means the world to you, and who you waited all your life for. I believe its' faith that brought me and teddybear together. If we can overcome these hard times for the first year, from there on things will be smooth sailing. thats what I think honestly. Well it's late and I better try, and get some sleep since I have school tomorrow. I know I just need to keep on pray about everything in life. but ill write tomorrow whiled im in lab. HUGS

Well right now i'm just relaxing taking it easy. K is at his friend shop tonight. He left early, and I'm hoping that means he will be hope early. He came home from work relaxed with me for a few then got ready headed out the door. I honestly can't wait till the car they are fixing is all done, and he don't have to go anymore. I'm going to read my book before heading off to bed. I hope everyone have a nice night...HUGS

I been trying to fight my cold for the past three days. I hate being sick. I usually get sick like once a year which thank god. I just hate feeling icky. Lately just been feeling so tired as well. plus the weather last week was not so nice either. If I didn't have a test tomorrow I would stay home tomorrow, but yup I have a English test tomorrow. So yup I need to get my butt to school tomorrow.

Well I hope everyone had a nice weekend. Lets say mines could have been better. I'm glad it's over already honestly. Tomorrow is a whole new day. I hope it's a better week as well. This Month just been such a bad month for me. I just want the year to end already as well. Things go so good one minute, and the next minute gets bad. I wish it could be all just good things. well I better go hit the sack. I'll write tomorrow whiled i'm waiting for my first class to start. HUGS

Woo Hoo! I'm enjoying every minute of not having School today. It's not like I can go out though since it's rainning. Yucky. hehe. I'm just going to relax all day, and be a lazy butt. hehe. My poor other half is working hard today. He called me not to long ago to see how i'm doing. =) I always love hearing his voice. =) When i'm having a bad day it's nice hearing his voice. =) Honestly it always work. He's my Prince Charming, and I'm happy to have him in my life. =) When i'm feeling down he always tries to cheer up me until he knows I'm happy once again. I Love You My Sweetheart. =)

Well i'm going to watch my favorite tv shows that I don't always get to watch like I use too. I'll write more later today. HUGS

No Class Tomorrow...

I'm so happy I don't have Class tomorrow. Usually I only have my English Class on Friday's, but our Teacher decided to be nice, and give both of her Classes a day off. How nice. Well I still have to study for a test on Monday for English. Oh and stupid me forgot to bring my paper home to study for the test. Dangit. I'm just glad I get to sleep in as long as I want to tomorrow. Woo hoo! Don't need to get my butt out of bed at 640pm. hehe.

Well heading off to bed soon. Feeling drainned. I have no idea why lately I been so tired. But i'm glad I'll get to catch up with some sleep tomorrow.

Oh tonight me and K went to the new Wal-mart in town. Very Big. A lot of people, but we didn't have to wait in line very long. Very good thing. I bought this acne thing called Nature's Cure so i'm hoping that will work on my face. K Sister was telling me that she told me friend to use it ,and she did. the next day she notice changes. So i'm hoping it will work for me as well. I used many different acne products, and haven't found one thing that worked good yet. This one has pills to take, and a cream you need to put on twice a day. So i'll let everyone know if this works.

Well right now just in Computer Lab killing time till my Class starts at 1210pm. Today the morning just seem to be dragging. I wish it would go little faster.

Well it's been so hot lately, but I don't know if thats what making me feel super dizzy. Sometimes it's not that bad, and there are times when I get super dizzy. I drank bottled water this morning when K drop me off at school, and had my breakfast. Well let's say the water didn't seem to help. But I should go and buy another bottle of water before going home. Lastnight it was really bad. I felt super dizzy for awhile, then I started up with a pounding headache, then after I felt really sick to the stomach. After awhile the sick feeling went away. but woke up this morning still feeling dizzy, and headache. If things don't improve Ill need to go vist my Doctor on Saturday. I swear the older I get the more problems I end up having. =(

Well today was my last Midterm. Little then two Months will be finals. I'm so not looking foward to that. But i'm looking forward attending HBC.

Well right now just writting an entry, and watching tv. Feeling little dizzy still. It's so darn hot in Kaimuki. I thought it was from being hungry, but not it wasn't. I had dinne, and I still feeling dizzy, and light headed. I should go lay down soon. I just thought I would write some thing before I end up falling asleep.

Well tomorrow is a regular day for me. I might just sleep in, and walk to school tomorrow if i'm still not feeling well. We will see when I wake up in the morning how I feel. Well i'm going to turn in. Sweet Dreams!

Two down One more to go...

I got off earlier then I thought. Much earlier. This morning I got to school had breakfast like I usually do, and after headed to English Lab to start on my work Ill be missing. Well I had to look up my homework. do it then turn it in before heading to my first test of the day. My first test was Japanese which only took me like 1/2 to finish. It wasn't a real long test Thank GOd. See a lot of our classes for Midterms some teachers give you a time period to come in and take the test. They don't hold there classes all day for that day so there students can come in and take there MidTerm. So after my japanese Test I relaxed for a few then went to my math class to go and take my Math test and get it out of the way. So it took me little over 1/2 sence I suck real bad in Math. After that I headed off home. So yeah I got home super early today. Tomorrow I only have my English Midterm. Tomorrow I only have that Class. Not every Teacher gives Midterms for some odd reason. I notice a lot of the High and Lower Classes give MidTerms. So my luck I had all three classes with Midterms. Oh wells. shows what I have learned from the beginning of the school till now. Well not much in Math all I can tell you. Being honest. hehe.

This whole day was just a day I didn't look forward too. Just so many bad things one after the other. It's just a day I want it to end already, and wake up and it's a whole new day. I just can't wait till this month is over with. well I'm going to lay down, and take a nap till K comes home from work. or till my second Mom (K's Mom) comes home from work around 330pm. Well i'll write more laters...HUGS

Computer Lab...

Well right now just taking it easy in the Computer Lab till I have to go to my First Class of the day. Time is going by super slow today. Yesterday we didn't have English Class which was super good. Honestly I hate that Class so bad. Yesterday we just had Japanese Class, and I ended up going in late. I was like 1/2 hour late. LOL. it's okie though. atleast I got there. I was just in a super lazy mood yesterday. Well last week Midterms started. I have two today. So I should be getting off School latest 330pm. Not to bad though. We will see how fast the test goes at the earliest I'll get out at 300pm. Yup this whole week is Midterm Week. Not everyone have it I notice, just curtain Classes if the Teacher feels like giving one. hehe. But yup all 3 of my Classes there will be a BIG Test. Wish me Luck I really do need it real bad. I just can't wait for the School Semester to end already. But I'm hanging in there till then. I can't wait for my Holiday. 11/11 will be our Veterans Day Holiday. NO School Woo Hoo! hehe. After that the last Holiday will be Thanksgiving. We will have two days off Thursday and Friday, and go back that following Monday. I'm looking forward to next Month already. LOL. Well I hope everyone is having a nice day. My day is going not to bad. Today in the cafeteria Andy Bumatai I think how you spell his last name sorry if I misspelled it. To bad I'll be missing that due to my Midterms I have. I also will be missing my English class so this morning I had to go do Lab work. Oh wells I can't catch like 1/2 hour of it if they start on time. We will see. Well I'll write more later tonight or tomorrow morning. HUGS

I haven't talk to my Sis in awhile. I know she's ok though. Just miss hanging with my Sis. She's a very busy woman. hehe. But hope to spend time with her one day soon. HUGS. She keeps up to date with my entries so she will read this. hehe. Love ya Sis...HUGS

I know it's late, and I should get my butt to bed. hehe. I just have a lot on my mind. I feel bad for waking up my other half. He's been having a long hectic week. I'm home here in Wahiawa. Friday's are my day to come home, spend time with my Mommy, and rest of the family, and Saturdays I go back to my 2nd house in town. hehe. It's hard even though it's just one day not waking up next to my other half. I guess i'm just so use to waking up 6 days a week by his side. Miss the hugs, and smooches before heading off to bed. I mean I get the I Love You part over the phone. I know i'm weird. Just love being with him. I know a lot of times I drive him up the wall, but yet he's always there to comfort me in time of need, and put up with my grumbles. He's the best. He's the best thing that ever happen to me. I'm happy to be with him. He's not like any other guy I ever dated. He's different. Good kind of Different. hehe. Well I better get my butt to bed. Everyone have a Nice and Safe Weekend.

Well lately I haven't had a chance to sit outside at school for couple of days already. It would always rain off, and on. I Miss coming to school, getting my breakfast, and just sitting outside enjoying the fresh air, and the bright sun. hehe. Lately it's been raining. I usually sit outside and do home or just listen to my CD player. Time does fly, sometimes it just drags, and I can't wait to go home.

Well Today I have a Japanese Chapter Test. I honestly know I won't do to good on my Katakana. But I'm going to try my best. I'm glad I get out school earlier now. I had a chance to move my 400pm class to 300 class. But since we been having lab to get ready for midterm test next week we been just studying, and doing work on the computer. It usually takes me like 15 - 20 Minutes to finish my Lab work. After that we get to go home which it's really good. Yesterday for the first time for English I had to go Lab early. I almost forgot about it. hehe. But yup we are getting ready for Midterms coming up. I'll be happy once it's finish with.

I talk to Nemo lastnight for a short while on the computer. He will be going back to School at HPU on the 27th. Good Luck Dude! I hope all goes well for him. I know HPU is a very good school, as well expensive. hehe. People are telling me I should go get my RN, and go there. But I already have my mind set on Medical Assitant. After this Semester is over with I'll have little over one Month to relax, and enjoy. Well yesterday for one I applyed for a job. I'm hoping I'll get it. I mean atleast a p/t job like after school. I told K lastnight I hope Sanrio store will have openings soon. I would love to work there. He goes I know you would. hehe. I would be so happy if I can get a job there at the Sanrio Store in Ala Moana. I also can buy all the Hello Kitty things I want. LOL. K must be thinking oh great. He already has two pink Hello Kitty Pillows on his bed. Thanks to Me. hehe. I asked him if I could buy it before getting one of them. My first Hello Kitty Pillow I didn't ask him. hehe. Well I better get to my school work. hehe. Write more Later. HUGS

Well it's time for bed. Feeling super tired. My body is hurting from lack of sleep. I can't wait till the Weekend. Usually when I'm home in Wahiawa I end up going sleep super early. I guess catching up with a lot of my lost of sleep. Sometimes I don't even remember when I even fall asleep. Mornings on Weekdays usually feels like I go to sleep, and next minute i'm already waking up to go to School. I think I'll sleep in and walk to School tomorrow. If I don't get enough sleep I know I will end up getting sick. I can't afford to get sick right now. Esp. with Midterms is here, as well as Japanese Class Test after Test. 3 times a week we have a test going on. English Class I usually get like two Test in one week as well, Math hardly, more Lab work then anything. I like Lab work though as soon as we finish we get to go home. So usually it takes me like less then 1/2 hour to finish my Lab work. Right now we are getting ready for Midterm which my test will be next week on the 11th. My English Class I have no idea yet she hasn't gave us the date yet. Same goes for Japanese not sure if we going to have midterm for Japanese class. It's crazy enough having 3 test in one week for japanese. It's really stressing me. It's so hard going back to school. I notice when I stress I stress. Now I know the meaning of Stress. hehe. I can't wait till I'm done with School, and working once again. I'm looking forward working back in the Medical Field. I'm honestly going to miss attending KCC once the semester is over. I have made so many new friends esp. in my English Class. and couple in my Japanese Class, as well Math. I never honestly went to a College were everyone get a long so darn good. My English Class is like that. We all get a long super good. I feel like I have known them for years. Yet I only known them for like 2 months. Well I better get my butt to sleep before I end up dragging to school tomorrow. HUGS

Well it's time for bed. Feeling super tired. My body is hurting from lack of sleep. I can't wait till the Weekend. Usually when I'm home in Wahiawa I end up going sleep super early. I guess catching up with a lot of my lost of sleep. Sometimes I don't even remember when I even fall asleep. Mornings on Weekdays usually feels like I go to sleep, and next minute i'm already waking up to go to School. I think I'll sleep in and walk to School tomorrow. If I don't get enough sleep I know I will end up getting sick. I can't afford to get sick right now. Esp. with Midterms is here, as well as Japanese Class Test after Test. 3 times a week we have a test going on. English Class I usually get like two Test in one week as well, Math hardly, more Lab work then anything. I like Lab work though as soon as we finish we get to go home. So usually it takes me like less then 1/2 hour to finish my Lab work. Right now we are getting ready for Midterm which my test will be next week on the 11th. My English Class I have no idea yet she hasn't gave us the date yet. Same goes for Japanese not sure if we going to have midterm for Japanese class. It's crazy enough having 3 test in one week for japanese. It's really stressing me. It's so hard going back to school. I notice when I stress I stress. Now I know the meaning of Stress. hehe. I can't wait till I'm done with School, and working once again. I'm looking forward working back in the Medical Field. I'm honestly going to miss attending KCC once the semester is over. I have made so many new friends esp. in my English Class. and couple in my Japanese Class, as well Math. I never honestly went to a College were everyone get a long so darn good. My English Class is like that. We all get a long super good. I feel like I have known them for years. Yet I only known them for like 2 months. Well I better get my butt to sleep before I end up dragging to school tomorrow. HUGS

Well I better get to my writing assignment soon. Well it's only a paragraph so not to bad. I rather get it out of the way today so tomorrow I don't even need to worry about it...oh wait I do...Tomorrow I need to have it typed out, and hand it in as well...ok that sucks...

Well as for Test I have a Oral Test for Japanese Class...Well atleast we all have a set time to attend our Oral Test. So yup once we are done we get to go bye bye. hehe. So usually the Oral is like 5 - 10 Minutes. Tomorrow for Japanese we have a Chapter Test...So I'm hoping I do good on that one.

Well I better get to my paper. I just thought I would write a short entry before starting on my paper...Till Later...HUGS

I hate slow nights...when time don't seem to going anywhere...Feels later then 840pm for me...usually i'm so use to time flying...tonight it's just one of those nights going by super slow...Teddybear is out picking up his friend from the airport, and after heading to a friend house to help him with something...I hope he comes home early tonight...Just want to spend sometime with him before heading off to bed, and coming home early would be a nice start...

Well tomorrow is already Wednesday...the days are going by super fast...tomorrow a test for Japanese once again...we usually have like 3 test a week for japanese I think thats just crazy...oh wells...she expects us to learn Katakana in one day...no ways it's possible for me...oh wells I'll do my best...

Well i'm going to turn in for the night feeling tired...latley just been super tired I really dont know why...but goodnight everyone...sweet dreams...