I just have way to many shit on my mind to sleep right now. I just wish my brain would just shut up, and stop always getting me into trouble with a whole bunch of shit. I just don't want anyone ruinning things with me and my teddybear. If it ever comes to that someone ruin things between him, and I honestly I'm going to do something about it. i'm not just going to sit around and let someone ruin things. for now I know I shouldn't worry about it. if time ever does come then i will start worrying about it. just when your so scared of losing someone all this shit goes through your mind. when someone who means the world to you, and who you waited all your life for. I believe its' faith that brought me and teddybear together. If we can overcome these hard times for the first year, from there on things will be smooth sailing. thats what I think honestly. Well it's late and I better try, and get some sleep since I have school tomorrow. I know I just need to keep on pray about everything in life. but ill write tomorrow whiled im in lab. HUGS